...my parents were right about this job I took... I don't like it... (Read my previous news post if you want to learn more) My manager is (unintentionally) making me really stressed out, and I keep waking up with this horrible feeling in my stomach. I just can't get rid of it... It's like a feeling of dread and just... not wanting to do stuff. Once again, I'm feeling like crap, but it's because of this job. It's a combination of a lot of things, I guess. Biggest thing: stress. Like I said, my manager is telling me to do things I'm really just not comfortable doing, like calling everyone in my entire freaking neighborhood just to try and get appointments. I don't know about you guys, but calling about a hundred people I don't know at all just isn't very appealing to me. I HATE calling people I don't know. HATE it. Can't do it. Period. Him telling me to do that is just really really scaring me and making my stress skyrocket. Second thing is, with the economy where it is right now, I don't know if I'm going to be able to sell stuff. I haven't sold anything so far, and he keeps on telling me about all the other people who have sold all this stuff, so apparently I'm a failure who just isn't doing something right... Oi gawds.... I don't like this job.... I'm sick of it already after two appointments... Another thing that's bugging me, I guess is... how do I tell him I want to quit after just one weekend? He keeps telling me I could be great with this company, but I obviously can't... I'm not cut out for this... I haven't been feeling good at all these past few days... I just want to curl up in a ball and cry...

I don't think he understands, I can't just call up some random person I don't know and ask if I can show them stuff.... I simply cannot do it. He's all like "It's okay, we're allow to do it since we're an independent company" or whatever, and believe me, that's not the issue at all. I don't even like talking to people I don't know, let alone calling them and going to their house to show them knives. Would any of you be able to do that? I guess I'm the only person in the world who has trouble doing that, apparently. >_____< Ugh..uuurrrghhh... this sucks. I'm really starting to think working in a retail store would be A LOT better. Sure, the pay isn't as good, but so what? I can't keep stressing like this over a job... I'm regretting ever doing all this. Sorry to bring you down again, guys... I just needed to rant for a bit... I'm gonna go drown myself in the toilet... bye...

MONDAY 5th UPDATE: I quit